How true is this!!!
I've learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.
This is an excerpt from an email to my Mom about the recent Napa Earthquake. (I now live about 25 miles from there!!!). Enjoy!
-- It was pretty scary at first, it was a violent shaking at first and then it was a rolling...like being on a boat that was moving around....only it was more like the boat was swaying on a horizontal axis rather than vertical. Not sure if that makes sense. Like a rocking chair laid on its side and rocking. I woke up first and it must have been instinct, I yelled "earthquake"!!! And ran toward Hudson's room with Leslie following close behind. We opened his door and looked inside, he was fine and nothing was moving that bad in his room. Les and I just sat on the floor in the hallway waiting for the shaking to stop and then subsequently the swaying too. As soon as the worst was over we looked again at Hudson and saw he had slept through the whole thing!
It was then we closed his door as quietly as possible and I started downstairs to check on Brooklyn. As soon as we closed Hudson's door, we could hear it rattling like there was a very strong draft running through the house, struggling to pass through the closed door and thus making it shake back and forth with a rattling sound. Only, there was no draft, no wind, and no window open. The quake was still moving the house, only not as bad now...it must have been some residual energy. Sensing it was most likely over, I went down to see Brooklyn, who sleeps on the 1st floor while Hudson, Leslie, and I are on the 3rd. When I stepped into the attached garage to get to Brooklyn's door, I was not sure what I would see around the corner. We have boxes and racks, and boxes on racks completely covering both long walls of the tandem garage. I was half waiting to find our garage almost impassible making me hop on piles of cardboard, metal, and junk to get to her door. Surprisingly, everything was fine! Nothing moved at all. It was baffling; I noticed the bowl of dog water that was full when I tucked her in now had only half left inside. The rest of the water was splashed all around the bowl. The splashing has an odd shape to it, most of the wet concrete below the bowl was on the North and South side, in a rectangular shape around the bowl. It wasn't at all circular like I might have expected. When I opened Brooklyn's door, the dogs were already at attention and barked loudly. Murphy has jumped up on BK's bed and Rufus was cowering in a corner, opposite of where they usually sleep. I was relieved to see nothing disturbed, including Brooklyn. She had managed to sleep through not only the earthquake, but the dogs barking too! When I saw she was still asleep and nothing had shifted, I went back upstairs to see what would pop up on the USGS site
I have been thinking a lot about legacy. The kind of legacy one leaves when they are gone. It is an interesting conversation, if you really think about it. Why would something like legacy matter to anyone? Life is interesting: you are not here, then you are here, and finally you are not here again. Many people can debate whether there is an afterlife, and what happens or doesn't happen to you in that afterlife. I don't get involved, one thing everyone can agree on, is when you die, you are not here anymore in the form you were once had. You are no longer yourself, in your form as a human, on this earth. With this being said, why would someone be worried about what happens past the time they are here? Why would they be concerned for anyone else but themselves while they ARE here? I have come to the conclusion there is no answer, or at least, I don't have one that works for me.
I am currently at a point where I am questioning some of what I am doing in my work life. There are things I do which I don't think are necessary and are counterproductive to making the world a better place...something I have said I am committed to. There are times where a crisis of conscience really have been overwhelming. It really comes down to what I have said I am. Freedom, Courage, Love, Empowerment. I desire esteem, from myself...in order to achieve esteem from myself, I must do what I consider to be esteem-able acts.
My reflection on and journey into the world of what it means to be here, on Earth, has resulted in me being less guided by my implanted desires, less driven by my worldly accepted practices of property and prestige acquisition. My motives are seeming to be more driven by contribution, self-acceptance, and inner well-being. My desires are slanting away from my current pursuits and leaning instead into a pursuit of something that would allow me more time with the ones I love and less time driving toward something else, both literally and figuratively.
Here we are, another year in the books...from my perspective at least. I am really at a crossroads now, as I usually am. Not some huge, life-changing decision point, don't worry. Really, every day you wake up can be a point of great and significant choices that must be made, and it doesn't have to be significant at all. It is sometimes difficult to manage how much significance I put on the choices I face in life.
I think the one that haunts me the most is which freeway to take into the office. I tell you, I have vacillated between two or three freeways ever since we moved into offices. I'm sure this might seem humorous to some people reading this, and it might be, AND this is a huge choice! Believe it or not, this choice might have a greater impact on my experience of life than hundreds of others I make on a minute by minute basis. The moral of the story is, I choose not only the choice but also how much the choice impacts my life. The "significance" or "weight" of any choice is up to me; as long as I remember this fact I am doing well. No more agonizing over what to do and most of all not agonizing over what I have already done!!!! Freedom, this is what I look for in life...and it is up to me to live it.
Recently, I am driven to ask myself about the title of this post. My drive comes from my Cousin, he has a Brain Tumor as well. His is most likely a different type than mine, and definitely in a different area of the brain. I just learned from Family my Cousin's tumor is actively growing again. He has had some time where nothing was really happening with it, after some pill form chemo it seemed under control; everyone was happy about it. To make a short story long and winded, we are no longer really happy about his progress...it seems things, for now, have taken an unwanted turn. I am left with the question of "why not me? why him?", and I am not arriving at an answer. It seems to me the question of why is one better left to God Himself, not to be really known by us. When we start getting into a "why" scenario, the laws of unintended consequences start to really take hold. When a cause is sought by Humans to mitigate against an effect possibly recurring, things get sketchy. I am not saying don't try to predict the weather so we can be safe and avoid natural disasters...I am saying don't wonder why something happens to someone or why it doesn't happen to someone else. As soon as we spend time in the whys of the situation that perplexes us, we miss out on being able to influence the actualities of the now occurring world. I am not going to wonder why me, or not me, or why him; I am instead going to keep on living, as I think he would want me to do....loving, sharing, experiencing things for as long as I can. Perhaps even after he can't anymore...he will know I love him, and wish him the best...and that is "why" I am going to live....to not have to ask
Well, right now I do. I wonder how much will be too much, and how do I know when I have reached that point? (really more of a statement). Right now, I am in the middle of a HUGE implementation at work. I am responsible for having my company go in a direction that is a big change to the business model and as a reward...I have been elevated to a position of authority to manage the new project. Man, what an honor (smiling, I say this thinking of all the work I have created for myself). It is now time, time to really be pressed by demands of family, work, and self all at the same time. I am starting to get really charged up and say to myself, "Self, we really did it!!! This is great!!" And at the same time, there is the nagging in the background, asking if I can really do it. The answer; who knows!!! Not a great and profound thing to say right now is it? Well, it is the truth. Nobody really knows, even if they say they do. What I do know is I am giving all I can to all I do. When it looks its bleakest, that is when I will reach down into my figurative tank violently swishing my hand back and forth like you do when you can't see what you are trying to get. It is then I will feel my hand strike something so powerful it will snap me back to immediate attention and I will stand up, triumphantly screaming "let's go!!!". What is it I finally grabbed that energized me so much??? Simple, the knowledge that none of any of what I am doing means anything...that, really, it is made up. I can then take a deep breath and think about what is really important to me, things like family, honor, love, and the way the world looks at sunrise when I am walking my dog on a brisk spring morning....it is at this time I can clear myself of all the noise of deadlines and stress that overpower my real purpose. It is at this time I can re-focus and re-center myself and impact the issues that are the underlying cause of my "stress". We might lose some properties, some things might not get done when they need to be done....nobody is going to die because of it. Instead of frantically running around complaining about lack of time and amounts of deadlines I will take meaningful, impactful actions and have it all work out with ease; maybe not how I wanted it to work out....and it will work out nonetheless. I had to write this because I just experienced what I described here....and needed to decompress about it. I have things like Leslie, Brooklyn, and Hudson to remind me about what is truly important, and really urgent in my life. I love you all!!!!!
Listen to me!!!! I got to be a guest host for the Chris Williams Radio Show on Blog Talk Radio. We spoke about a report that was published by LPS, a prominent Real Estate Loan Service Company, and what the report meant about the housing recovery. Check out my VERY poignant and intricate observations on this recent report. It was really cool; I think I will do a show myself and see how many people will listen! Thanks for checking out my site and hope you like the Show, it is only 15 minutes in length and packed with detailed stats and a very concise "what it means for me" section. Enjoy!
Let me know what you think of the video!
This is my new venture! Not exactly sure how it will be done, or when it will be done, and I will do it. I have been working in Residential Investment Real Estate for over 10 years now and it is time I utilized my knowledge and expertise to help people be able to do it for themselves. I am working on the program that will transfer my extensive knowledge into a learn-able format for all to use. So watch out! Coming soon is something to let you get the most crucial part of investing in Real Estate down pat, just like the Pro's do; what is this place worth on the flip!!!!???? I will answer this question for you and teach you to answer it for yourself, then, no longer will you be at the mercy of other "Real Estate Professionals". Sometimes, I use that term loosely. Thanks for reading and I will be posting something very soon!
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